not ready to make nice.

i'll admit it...

i'm still bitter. very bitter.
i tend to hold grudges. i'm quite good at it.
i know it's not good for me, but it's just one of my defense mechanisms, i suppose.
eventually, i will forgive. but, never will i forget.

especially in this situation. a situation that is both absolutely absurd and screwed up all at the same time.

how a person can't see that they are at fault is beyond me.
how a person can act like everything is a-okay is beyond me.
how a person can continually lie is beyond me.
how a person can even think that they'll come out alright & be "back in business" is beyond me.

seriously.

get a grip and get a good, fresh dose of reality.

my children - yes, my children - have a firmer grip on what's right & what's wrong than you do.
my children understand the consequences of their actions.
my children know that it's not okay to cast blame on another when it is one of them who is really at fault.
my children know that telling lie after lie after lie will only keep them in trouble.

maybe one of these days this person will realize the magnitude of the situation.
maybe one of these days this person will actually realize that the only person to blame is themself.
maybe one of these days this person will understand the severity of the situation.
maybe one of these days this person will actually have the heart to apologize to it's family & to the other families whose lives have been either ruined or temporarily put on hold because of all of this.

until then...

i'll be moving forward without you. because i'm not ready to make nice.